Today.. Wake up very Early.. early in the morning my mother on the pc and sing song..so Noisy want to sleep more also cant so get myself to get up lo... haiz...still late for class lol late for 25 min... i tell myself that i cant alway late for class i must be early for now no :D now having java break that why can update my blog. :) .tml is java class liao must jia you oo.. later go out with my dear go to yishun and eat dinner..take care bye.year is ending liao exam is coming all must jia you ;p..
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|9:15 AM|
Haiz Today.. i really not mean what i say.. i really feel so bad for what i say just want to say sorry haiz.. i really cant control myself when i am angry how i wish i have no anger maybe thing was not as bad as i think leh.. haiz..if got problem let slove together i dont wish you to go alone :) really ... really ... today i went out with my sister haha.. at the starting we went to bugis to walk walk.. lo haha went to eat aijisen LoL eee the green tea was so suckie ... want to vomit.. i wont buy ice green tea next time.. so i call the waiter to give me paint water at least better then that green tea haha... then we went to walk around bugis ... want to take neoprint but ended up thinking that today not very nice so dont take lo haha. ^^! my jie jie bought a shirt... and a slipper lol .. her $50 gone haha.. stupid jie jie spent so much ^^ i only bought a pants that cost 40 at least i did not spent that much lol! haha after that i went to my friend house to take frame haiz.. so tired so far ..so hard to find haha at least my jie pei me lol! haha so nvm lo went to there and take the frame :) and then went to most burger to get something to drink(ice milk tea ) ^^then went home lo.. hehe.. end here
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|4:34 PM|
haha..nowaday i been reading all my friend blog.. from last year to now..bring back alot of memoria.. all happy memoria haha..really wish i can go back to the time when we have so much fun...i alway wished that time can go back at least we can enjoy all we want ^^! from starting to now..maybe we are not as close as last time but all i know is.. i really do cherish you all until now ;p year is ending not much time left..must cherish all your ite friend 2 year friendship is not easy to find ^^ take care haha..
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|6:33 AM|
I just Understand a person deeper!because i read all the blogspot she write..the moment i start reading my tear start droping..i am so sad now..because last time she write all the thing on her blog..feeling...thing...the sad part is she never write anything about me..maybe you say that you lazy to post but is it true?you dont want people to know our relationship? all the thing happen around us... all the thing we do.. looking at myself i am so pain.. giving up all the thing for you.. giving all my heart to someone that sometime dont even care how i feel?i understand you everyday ...day by day..but when i asked you did you try to understand me ?your reply was (silent)...you say you dont know how.. to understand a person..but (understand a person is just a feeling)knowing what he like Food,drink,game etc.. .from the start i am giving 100% to you...i really give all to you...even all the thing is against me i am still beside you...because i really love you alot.. i am alway by your side..maybe sometime you dont like the way i do...but...you tell me a way for me to do..sometime i feel loss too..i feel sad...all i can do is find my friend to talk to..because i dont want to stress you up..!i never been so deep before in relationship..i treat you like someone very important to me!! but did you treat me to the best?from the start your feeling just so messy...really messy..!but i still by your side...you say before in your blog ...you want someone to love you!!but..when i love you did you cherish me?did you do thing that make me touched?i really dont want to say anymore...alot of thing is in me Now..i really dunno what i am doing..maybe giving myself sometime to think about..it!i change myself to fit into your life..But all i want is.. you to understand me more... End here ...
From the Day we Started i gived you everything i got
i know that you did not love me fully
but i continew the way
because i scare to loss you
now i find myself in pain
i dont wish to stop
but i am just looking back
looking that all the thing i do is it worth it
all i want is you to cherish me
did you cherish me?
(All i want is someone that care for me!)did you really care for me?
TillEnd(Song)
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|7:07 AM|
sometime i really look down on myself...i dont know why.... the more i try ...the more i fall..i stand up stronger...but the pain still with me...i dont know why i am like this....but one thing is for sure...i will try my best to make my future because my life now are not what i want..just want be what i dream of...maybe you think dream is just a dream..i think that if you are willing to do it...it will come true..i am happy because i know that there's someone that care of me..more then anyone do..maybe that is what keep me going...
Focus on what i want
Doing what i need
Trying my Best to Overcome the problem
Having some Luck
Maybe i will get what i want :)
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|1:55 AM|
Hoooo Today just Finish my Lan test so happy i know alot of question :) still got Long way to go..i havent done my INS Assigment Haha.. today Mood Very Happy LoL
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|11:29 AM|
Today went to study..but study with her.. So fun been playing all day long..but we also got study la..:) i never go school leh today because i cant wake up ... so lazy right me :D anyway ended up in chun an house study my Local Area network..today no need to sleep already because need to study ... :) wish myself good luck for tomorrow Test..Jia you Jia You ;P
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|11:24 AM|