Today.. Wake up very Early.. early in the morning my mother on the pc and sing song..so Noisy want to sleep more also cant so get myself to get up lo... haiz...still late for class lol late for 25 min... i tell myself that i cant alway late for class i must be early for now no :D now having java break that why can update my blog. :) .tml is java class liao must jia you oo.. later go out with my dear go to yishun and eat dinner..take care bye.year is ending liao exam is coming all must jia you ;p..Monday (12 Sept 2005)Today went for lesson lo 1pm start so bored... did not sleep for very long because i slept around 6am ...haha then wake up at 11.55am.. then need to rush to school.. luckily the bus came on time so i went to school at 1pm sharp haha first time leh..must be early..end at 6pm... then wait for my dear lo.. end here.. haha Tuesday(13 Sept 2005)did not go to school today.. overslept ... this is the last time i will going to do this.. haiz.. must come to school, exam coming liao must jia you...then went to meet my dear for lunch because she go to see doctor.then i take taxi ... because want to pei her see doctor... haha. then i reach liao she finish liao.. then went to pet shop and see pet.. haha.. she like pet alot... if can right your parent allow ... maybe i will buy you a pet ba.. haha just a thinking only ;p Haha.. but you must have time for the pet la..after the lunch we went school ... she went to dance... then i go src Rox lo haha... next time i will bring book and study liao cant waste time... ... then after that send her home... end here ...Wed(14 Sept 2005)Yesterday.. eat breakfast.. with chun an they all ... then after that went back to school for my Local are network Lesson...So Stressfull.. Haha because teacher call us to do tutorial must pass up.. so all of us chiong lo...haha... ended up all cant do finish. .so went home to do the work lo.. :) after that went to SrC to rest lo...haha...then i went to canteen for my lunch...then saw my dear.. there then went to pei her for her lunch... hehe...my head was pain ...haiz... dont know why suddenly like that...after the lunch went back to SRc see show lo... wait until 8.30pm... then send her home... end here lol :p
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|9:15 AM|
Haiz Today.. i really not mean what i say.. i really feel so bad for what i say just want to say sorry haiz.. i really cant control myself when i am angry how i wish i have no anger maybe thing was not as bad as i think leh.. haiz..if got problem let slove together i dont wish you to go alone :) really ... really ... today i went out with my sister haha.. at the starting we went to bugis to walk walk.. lo haha went to eat aijisen LoL eee the green tea was so suckie ... want to vomit.. i wont buy ice green tea next time.. so i call the waiter to give me paint water at least better then that green tea haha... then we went to walk around bugis ... want to take neoprint but ended up thinking that today not very nice so dont take lo haha. ^^! my jie jie bought a shirt... and a slipper lol .. her $50 gone haha.. stupid jie jie spent so much ^^ i only bought a pants that cost 40 at least i did not spent that much lol! haha after that i went to my friend house to take frame haiz.. so tired so far ..so hard to find haha at least my jie pei me lol! haha so nvm lo went to there and take the frame :) and then went to most burger to get something to drink(ice milk tea ) ^^then went home lo.. hehe.. end here(Wed) 7 Sept 2005today start school at 8pm haiz... i late for 45 min because i overslept in bus.. haha.. sad leh sit 853 until patong something one forget the name haha.. then because too tired liao la cant blame lol ^^! then go school do NwA lab lol so stress because richard come back liao must jia you 4 pointer leh must chiong with him lol! haha joking la ... because i doing lab 9 with richard ma..because i never come to school on teacher day ^^! haha..then after that we went to eat my breakfast with chun an they all lo.. they force me to eat faster becauase they want to kick soccer hehe.. then eat finish liao all chiong to soccer court.. play lo.. but i,eugene,Daniel,wei kiat dont want to play stand there and see haha.. they asked us to play... they need one person then Daniel pulled by them we faster run away haha.. poor daniel haha so poor thing ..then went to canteen lo.. sit there and relax abit oo 12pm liao then went to lesson lo ... haha saw my dear ... so play with her ... hehe.. after that went to inet saw ada they all sit there talking ...so went up with them.. waited for teacher to start lesson..wa so tired... study for 30 min then i cant tahan fall asleep haiz.. so sad.1st time sleep in Lan...after lesson .ada and hui ping wanted to go Src but .. Src only for Sc member so.. they cant go in lo..haha poor thing so we went to inet and sit there talk until 5pm haha... play until like siao kai me ...haha after that they went to dance so i went to Src see Show Haha (Bug me not).. nothing to do ma..saw until 7++pm still early.. then marval take out another show for me to watch also...but i watch until fall asleep ...marval wake me up..haha asked me want to go eat ma... we(andrain,jasmine and Zhou Rui and marval )went to a coffee shop near school somewhere....for eatting :p ~did not eat too full.. coz the food was little LoL after that went back to school meet my dear .. send her home lo...waited for her 7hour ... haha because i 1pm+dismiss liao then she went to dance until 8+lol..see i so good right wait for you so long ^^! happy ma haha..end here take care ... :preally hope that you can be so happy everydaywithout worrywithout sadnessjust with happness when i am with you :)
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|4:34 PM|
haha..nowaday i been reading all my friend blog.. from last year to now..bring back alot of memoria.. all happy memoria haha..really wish i can go back to the time when we have so much fun...i alway wished that time can go back at least we can enjoy all we want ^^! from starting to now..maybe we are not as close as last time but all i know is.. i really do cherish you all until now ;p year is ending not much time left..must cherish all your ite friend 2 year friendship is not easy to find ^^ take care haha..(4 sept 2005) Sundayhaha.. meet her to study today.. but i cant wake up lol too tired...ended up she reach 1st... so paiseh make her wait ... then i take cab and went down to woodland lo..haha at least she dont have to wait that long .. then to kfC eat our lunch lol....after that then went to library.. but haha so full.. cant find a place to study... lol! then we went to see hui ping ...haha she working at cathay..so we decide to see show ^^ see march of the penguins.. haha..but it is 7.30pm start so we went to play some lan game ^^! play counter strike ,half life and wc3 lol ...then it is almost 7.00pm already so we went to pay up.. and get ready to see the show lol ^^! siting beside hui ping and disturbing her when working haha.. !we went in at 7.15pm ..went to buy popcorn lol! haha the show is very cute.. penguins ma lol! the small penguins is so cute ^^!haha.. after the show ..wanted to eat but too late already almost 9 so deicde to go home. we went to take bus home lo.. send her home ... she was tired...she fall asleep lol ... reach her house and send her home lo ^^! then i went to take my bus and went back home lol the end :p
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|6:33 AM|
I just Understand a person deeper!because i read all the blogspot she write..the moment i start reading my tear start droping..i am so sad now..because last time she write all the thing on her blog..feeling...thing...the sad part is she never write anything about me..maybe you say that you lazy to post but is it true?you dont want people to know our relationship? all the thing happen around us... all the thing we do.. looking at myself i am so pain.. giving up all the thing for you.. giving all my heart to someone that sometime dont even care how i feel?i understand you everyday ...day by day..but when i asked you did you try to understand me ?your reply was (silent)...you say you dont know how.. to understand a person..but (understand a person is just a feeling)knowing what he like Food,drink,game etc.. .from the start i am giving 100% to you...i really give all to you...even all the thing is against me i am still beside you...because i really love you alot.. i am alway by your side..maybe sometime you dont like the way i do...but...you tell me a way for me to do..sometime i feel loss too..i feel sad...all i can do is find my friend to talk to..because i dont want to stress you up..!i never been so deep before in relationship..i treat you like someone very important to me!! but did you treat me to the best?from the start your feeling just so messy...really messy..!but i still by your side...you say before in your blog ...you want someone to love you!!but..when i love you did you cherish me?did you do thing that make me touched?i really dont want to say anymore...alot of thing is in me Now..i really dunno what i am doing..maybe giving myself sometime to think about..it!i change myself to fit into your life..But all i want is.. you to understand me more... End here ...
From the Day we Started i gived you everything i got
i know that you did not love me fully
but i continew the way
because i scare to loss you
now i find myself in pain
i dont wish to stop
but i am just looking back
looking that all the thing i do is it worth it
all i want is you to cherish me
did you cherish me?
(All i want is someone that care for me!)did you really care for me?
TillEnd(Song)
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|7:07 AM|
sometime i really look down on myself...i dont know why.... the more i try ...the more i fall..i stand up stronger...but the pain still with me...i dont know why i am like this....but one thing is for sure...i will try my best to make my future because my life now are not what i want..just want be what i dream of...maybe you think dream is just a dream..i think that if you are willing to do it...it will come true..i am happy because i know that there's someone that care of me..more then anyone do..maybe that is what keep me going...
Focus on what i want
Doing what i need
Trying my Best to Overcome the problem
Having some Luck
Maybe i will get what i want :)
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|1:55 AM|
Hoooo Today just Finish my Lan test so happy i know alot of question :) still got Long way to go..i havent done my INS Assigment Haha.. today Mood Very Happy LoL
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|11:29 AM|
Today went to study..but study with her.. So fun been playing all day long..but we also got study la..:) i never go school leh today because i cant wake up ... so lazy right me :D anyway ended up in chun an house study my Local Area network..today no need to sleep already because need to study ... :) wish myself good luck for tomorrow Test..Jia you Jia You ;P
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|11:24 AM|
